Today, May 17, 2021 at 8:08pm would be the last time I would hear my husband go downstairs to wash clothes. Monday nights was his weekly routine to take care of his laundry. I fell asleep and when I was awaken by the Lord, I noticed that he had not returned to the room. I went to search for him and found him laid out in the laundry room ...
God has been keeping me through this journey of widowhood. He has been faithful to me and He has been my provider and comforter. I haven't gone through this grief process like most expect but I go through the way God has designed it for me.
Ezekial 24:15-20 NIV
15 The word of the Lord came to me: 16 “Son of man, with one blow I am about to take away from you the delight of your eyes. Yet do not lament or weep or shed any tears. 17 Groan quietly; do not mourn for the dead. Keep your turban fastened and your sandals on your feet; do not cover your mustache and beard or eat the customary food of mourners.”
18 So I spoke to the people in the morning, and in the evening my wife died. The next morning I did as I had been commanded.
19 Then the people asked me, “Won’t you tell us what these things have to do with us? Why are you acting like this?”
20 So I said to them, “The word of the Lord came to me:
24 Ezekiel will be a sign to you; you will do just as he has done. When this happens, you will know that I am the Sovereign Lord.’
27 At that time your mouth will be opened; you will speak with him and will no longer be silent. So you will be a sign to them, and they will know that I am the Lord.”
***Read the chapter for yourself to get the full context of the story***
As Ezekiel, I was not able to mourn like the norm or like those who have no hope. I did not wear sackcloth. I didn't lay on the ground and I did not throwing ashes on my head. God thrusted me into continuing and moving forward in what He had called us to do, except now I had to do as one.
In my heart I know Kevin is in a better place; a place of peace. However, I miss the days of doing ministry with him. I thank God for Kevin because he poured into me ministry conduct and I am grateful and the better for it.
As for me and Ezekiel, I too was used and is still being used by God as a sign to know that HE IS GOD and besides Him there is no other.
I had to keep my turban fastened and my sandals on my feet. I had to enter places that people only had reserved for Kevin and open my mouth and speak (no longer remaining silent). I am a sign to them that do not believe that are in the faith and to those that are not in the faith.
I am missing my H-bandman on today but I also have to acknowledge my Lord and Savior on how far He has brought me. How far He has carried me and how far He has kept me. Thank you Jesus!
With all that being said my enouragement to you is ...
Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.
No matter what it looks like, no matter what the naysayers are saying, no matter what life may bring ... TRUST GOD! With Him all things are possible. With Him no storm can rage big enough or wild enough to overtake you. Submit and acknowledge Him in everything and your paths will be made straight. You will not have to worry and you will not have to fear because God will see you through. You can make it! All things re possible with God.
Peace, comfort and joy be unto you from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.
In honor of my husband
Minister Kevin Miller 6/20/67 - 5/17/21
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